Baby Steps

This weekend we will take our very first (baby) steps toward adopting. There is an open house in Indianapolis for families interested in adopting from Bulgaria and... despite the craziness of the weekend we have planned I will be there while BJ stays home with the boys. And, hopefully, I will come out of the meeting encouraged and ready to take on this long journey. 

We're just at the beginning and feeling a bit overwhelmed facing what will likely be a 3 year process to bring our third child home. That's over three pregnancies worth of waiting! The hardest thing is all of the uncertainty that goes along with international adoption. And with a long wait there's of course a concern that something might dramatically change with the program 2 years from now. But, I keep coming back to what we do know. 

And that is... God has set this all in motion. He is the one who has put this in our hearts and He will see it through to completion. He already knows and loves our child. He knows and mourns for what she will face in her first couple of years. And so he has pulled our futures together to show her His great love. And we have the great privilege of being the ones who take her into our arms and let her know that she is loved by us and by God. That in fact she has been loved and dreamed of by us for YEARS. That she is a joy and a blessing. That she is beautiful and created for a purpose in this life. Years before she was even born she was on our hearts and in our plans, and God was making a way for her.