Crickets...

Over two months after our final home study visit, we are still waiting. Every week is a new promise that our home study report will be wrapped up in days. And every week is another unresponded to phone call or email, or another timeline for NEXT week. It's sooo frustrating, but I know that waiting is something we will need to just get used to over the course of the next year... and remember that the wait we experience is nothing compared to hers.

We know our daughter waits for us. It's so hard to face these delays knowing that it in the end it will mean more time for her to be in an institution instead of a family where she belongs.

"When you say YES to adoption, you are saying YES to enter the suffering of the orphan, and that suffering includes WAITING FOR YOU TO GET TO THEM. I promise you, their suffering is worse than yours. We say YES to the tears, YES to the longing, YES to the maddening process, YES to the money, YES to hope, YES to the screaming frustration of it all, YES to going the distance through every unforeseen discouragement and delay. Do not imagine that something outside of "your perfect plan" means you heard God wrong. There is NO perfect adoption. EVERY adoption has snags. We Americans invented the "show me a sign" or "this is a sign" or "this must mean God is closing a door" or "God must not be in this because it is hard," but all that is garbage. You know what's hard? Being an orphan. They need us to be champions and heroes for them, fighting like hell to get them home. So we will. We may cry and rage and scream and wail in the process, but get them home we will." - Jen Hatmaker